Sabotaging Self Doubt

Proof that negative thoughts can lead to failure. One of my favourite asanas is Sirasana, the headstand.  I love the feeling of weightless when I am upside down as I feel all my muscles and body relax into the pose, with the exception of my arms of course, they are working very hard, bringing the weight back into my elbows.  It took some time for me to feel relaxed in this posture, in fact it took a while for me to even be able to do the posture, like everyone it was a learning curve.  I would spend hours trying to get into the posture, falling out time and time again.  And I noticed that my thoughts were very important for the outcome of the pose.

If I was thinking negatively, for example my mind started to run images of me falling out of a headstand and hurting my back, or my neck, or even falling down the stairs out of the posture which was a physical impossibility, as soon as my mind started to play these negative thoughts I began to doubt myself, fear would creep into my practice and more often than not I would fall out of the posture.  So I began to observe this on a regular basis, was it really happening, did my negative thoughts cause me to fail?  And it seemed that they did.  If I took time in balasana, child's pose, before the posture and I visualised myself in a strong headstand, I would float up into the pose and feel as light as a feather.  If I worried and fretted about falling, I would fall.  It was as simple as that.  And proof that negative thoughts and self doubt really do sabotage our progress.

So thinking about that on a larger scale off my yoga mat, I wondered how many opportunities I have sabotaged because of a negative thought process, a self doubt.  And I can think of a number of instances when I was negative about something and the outcome was unfavourable.  

I now try to live my life with a very positive outlook, I recognise the futility of negative thoughts, the sheer destructive nature of them and I choose to live without them. And since then, life has been much better!

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