I was lying in savasana on Saturday morning I caught my mind doing its usual berating act, criticising me for things that I hadn't done or hadn't achieved. As I observed the thought and tried to not attach emotion to it, another thought began to form in my mind and I realised that even though my motor mouth mind was still going on and on about my failings, that it was okay, that I was okay, that I had done enough and that I was at peace.
It was a moment of enlightenment and of complete clarity, I often get moments of peace on my mat, but this was a really important lesson to me, I like to recapture and remember it instead of the negativity that my mind often throws at me. My mind is my own worst enemy. It is my biggest critic, shouting away in the background about my lack of achievements, my lack of yoga classes, my lack of students, my lack of confidence in my teaching, whatever it wants to pick up on to make me feel dreadful and it is hard not to listen to it. What is it about the human mind that makes it so critical? If it isn't criticising me, it is criticising someone else and making comparisons.
When I am practising yoga, it is the one time where I feel in control of my mind. I talk to it, I apply meditation techniques and for a few blissful moments in my day I learn to watch it. Yoga allows me to be who I am, who I really am, without faults, without criticism, without wanting, without needing, I can just be. And it is for that very reason that I step back onto my mat day after day.